Worth it...

Have you ever just wanted to disappear?
Forget the world and simply fade away
Woken up and wished you had never even bothered
Well thats exactly how I feel today.
I wonder why I persist to put in such effort
Wasting so much of my precious energy and time
Living a lie merely to please everyone else
When did I lose the dreams that were once mine?
I am mentally drained and physically exhausted
I just want to curl up forever and go to sleep
I don't want to have to face the world tomorrow
The intensity of this emotion makes me so weak.
I am ready to just give it all up
I can feel myself beginning to fall
I can see myself throwing in the towel
And walking away from it all.

Then I hear a quiet knock
At my bedroom of miseries door
A struggle for the lock and handle
Two tiny feet appear on my bedroom floor.
My little boy looks up at me
Climbs comfortably into my nice warm bed
Nuzzling within his mothers arms
As he rests his weary little head.
His bright eyes stare straight back at me
As mine do gaze right back at him
All that negativity some how just fades away
As a new day is about to begin.
While I watch my son, I am reminded
That he is the very reason that I keep going
What makes getting up each morning worth the while
Is to see my baby boy growing.