No More

That's it I'm tired of it
I feel things that aren't even real
I can't keep living a lie
Every lie i tell, i actually feel.

I'm living this lie
That can spear me deeply
I have to stop
Every lie i can feel it in me.

Real people out there
Live this life i tell of
Yet i feel everything i say
but my life's as peaceful as a dove

Some may call me a pathological liar
But i don't do i for the attention
I don't know why i do it
And i hate the feel of tension

I told someone who Ive grown to look up to
She made me realize i have to stop
Still no one knows I'm lying
But it eats at me, I'm ready to drop.

How can i change this
to make it batter for me
For the people I've told
This isn't who i want to be

One day it's going to be bad
Something i won't be able to control
And I'll regret everything I've done
I can't bear to do this to my soul

People say they know this
They know everything about me
I wish i could tell them
If they knew then just maybe.

I really, really need to stop
I'm not kidding anymore
What can i say next
I was legally dead on the floor?

I'm not going to say things like,
I'm not going to say anything anymore
I've already lied to myself
Someone needs to open a door

A door where I can get some serious help
Because I can't do this myself
But what am I saying
I can't even control my own self

I keep saying things
And I feel that as if they are real
But I'm living one big lie
I don't even know what to feel.

Please guys... comment... advice... anything... i love to hear about what people have to say =)