I prayed this wouldn't happen,
everything would be all right.
i prayed for my safety,
and i prayed through the night.
i thought to myself,
trying to understand,
but in your eyes i fall,
it's like quick sand.
i think to myself i should leave now,
this is going no where.
but I'm going to hell,
b/c you didn't care.
i wish this were different,
but in the end i know.
it was meant to be,
and i know this from the bottom of my soul.
But instead,
you had to make this hard.
you had to want me dead.
Now i take the one true friend i have,
thats hidden under neath my bed.
at least i know you'll be glad.
this choice is difficult,
but i didn't care.
i pull out the knife,
and just stare.
I raise it higher with every thought of you,
wishing this were just a nightmare,
that it wasn't true.
But it wasn't,
instead i felt the pain.
i knew it was brought from with in,
and i knew i was giving in.
so with the blood dripping,
i was losing my grip.
i could barley stand there,
and I'd fell on my bed.
I'd known it wouldn't last,
but i at least thought i could try to change the past.
of course it didn't work,
thats why I'm here,
being a sore sport.
it was either me or you who had to go,
and i figured this would show.
i have to sacrifice my life for you,
and i dint find that right,
but it's true,
i didn't even last tonight.
it's a sad thought,
but in the end,
i knew I'd fought.
i fought until the end,
when I'd giving in..
