Gazing out the window,
It's snowing and raining again.
I can see my own reflection,
Just like that day back then.
People laughing,
And walking right by.
I sat there crying,
While no one knew why.
You stood outside,
In that very spot.
It was so cold outside,
But my heart felt hot.
The amount of tears I cried,
And the pain in my heart.
It was so unimaginable,
It tore me apart.
On the night of Christmas Eve,
Our relationship came to an end.
You decided to break up with me,
And just stay my friend.
But I couldn't live with that,
The day before our one year anniversary.
How could you hurt me like that?
How could you do that to me?
When you said those words,
"We're better off as friends."
I felt my world fall apart,
And our love came to an end.
My friends try to cheer me up,
But then on comes my favorite band.
Our song starts to play,
And I start to wish for you to hold my hand.
But you didn't love me anymore,
And you just stood outside.
We watched each other as I left,
And to my friends, I began to confide.
I poured my heart out,
Screamed with all my might.
Everyone held me in empathy,
As I cried through the night.
You started to ignore me,
Thinking that it was for the best.
I couldn't stop thinking about you,
And never got enough rest.
I would break down in the halls,
And sometimes even during class.
Everyone was pissed at you,
For shattering me like glass.
My Christmas Day was ruined,
But now I know I have to be strong.
I still don't know why,
Or what went wrong.
But I do know,
That crying is useless.
That it's dumb to dwell,
And make such a big fuss.
So today, for one last time,
I'll think about how I loved you so.
It's time to let go of everything,
As I gaze through the window.
[c] 2O06 Mindy Huang
I'm kind of fazed out right now, so feedback and suggestions for editing are well appreciated.
