The words you speak now
cut every which way through every inch of my body
I have no feeling whatsoever, and no thoughts at all
besides what to do next
Do I lie to myself
Do I believe the words you say
There is no point in crying
even at the times I can
Too many tears have been wasted on you
Yet not all tears of pain
With just one memory going through my head, good or bad
sometimes I can't help myself
The tears stream out and I suddenly get lost
I am lost in pain, lost in confusion
I can't seem to understand
yet don't know if I would want to
I realize I am lost in painful thought
I wish every memory would go away
The bad aren't worth remembering
and it hurts too much to remember the good
I want to say I don't care, but know I always will
I know now the most I can do is try my best
Even though I can never deny the truth to myself
I can pretend and make others believe I'm okay
believe I've moved on
Only those few who know the real me will know the truth
That a part of me will always be in the past
and no matter what I do or how hard I try
that little part of me will never be okay
