Little bits of me

Once upon a time...
...not far from where you are...
...there is that girl that never knows what to do...
...or what to say...
..she always asks for others advice...
...and lives by their opinions...
...she grew up thinking for herself...
...yet still influenced by others words...
...sitting for hours in her room...
...she trys to make sense of everything in her mind...
...Friends...
...guys...love...
...reality...
...but most of all her dad....
...she couldn't understand him at all...
...why he thought she'd screw up...
...why he calls her stupid...
...why he always yells and screams...
...why he always never see's the possibilities of what she could be...
...up until she made it through life's first youthful eleven years...
...she always wanted him to be proud...
...she wanted him to love her..
...somewhere in that precious age...
...she gave up that petty dream...
...even though more than anything...
...she wished she had a real father...
...one that cared about her...
...and what she knew she could be...
...of course wishing never works...
...even if its on a star...
...so that girl moved on...
..and tried to be strong...
...so she could forget about the turmoil her daddy left her...
...that heartbroken girl...
...is me...