Painless Suicide

The wretched cries in the night
That seem to pierce my ears
The smile I painted on this morning
Is starting to disappear
Focus on my reflection
What have I turned into
A tattered and broken body
With bruises of black and blue
Inside I am dead
Just branded with a name
Fallen into this eternal darkness
To never again be the same
Scars all over my body
Each with it's own tale
One for when he broke her heart
And one for saying she would fail
The pounding is much closer
So near it echoes through my head
Close my eyes to see memories
Of back when I was dead
Lost and Forgotten
Shattered and unseen
Left with nothing but emptiness
To become bitter and mean
Pick up the blade
And soon I'll be fine
Let my problems drift away
No measurement of time
Breaking free from my cell
The blade is the key
Put it to my wrist
And let the rest set me free
Can't find the courage
To press the blade down
Just another lonely night
In my tears I will drown
The next night it's tempting
As he comes back for more
He leaves me searching for the knife
That was dropped onto the floor
Make a cut for every "I love you"
Make two for every lie
Add three for every tear
And every night he made me wish I would die
Press a little bit harder
Out comes the first crimson tear
Finally releasing the pain
That's been built up after all these years
This life isn't worth it
This is what I decide
Take the knife to my throat
And I'll finally have my painless suicide...