So you\'re curious
what goes on
behind my closed doors
well, come in
just be sure to
shut the door
behind you
ill show you my legs
and my arms
and my stomach
marred with
purple, red, and white
scars
scars from pain
and stress
and self-loathing
ill show you my ribs
and my bony arms and legs
ive been starving myself
slowly
but surely
because im too fat
ill always be too fat
ill show you my mirror
its shattered you know
because thats the only way
i can look at myself
the disgusting ugliness shows
otherwise
ill show you my walls
filled with my art
writings and drawings
filled with posters
of inhuman beauties
all reflecting the darkness
and self-loathing
i feel
ill show you my taste
in music and art
in posters and bed sheets
in movies and stickers
all reflecting
the broken soul inside
ill show you inside me
what i am
who i was
who i will be
always broken somehow
with stitches and scars
all over my soul
bet you aren\'t that curious anymore
about what goes on
behind the closed doors
of others\'
even if you find something good
it also shows pain
regret, sorrow, betrayal
a darkness that you will never
ever quench from your eyes
and your mind
take it from me
leave my door shut
dont come in
dont even knock
