Endless Addiction

Please stop It's heartless teasing,
It's temptation and carelessness.
Let me feel the pain inside easing,
I hate this feeling of restlessness.

So, so good. Yet so, so bad.
The taste and smell, the texture.
This goes beyond the same old fad,
I don't need another lecture.

You've told me once, you've told me twice,
But I never seem to learn.
Like a forbidden, secret spice,
It's taste causes me to yearn.

Hoping, waiting patiently,
turns to searching, needing, desperately.

I'm hooked, caught, empty of feeling.
It's all because of you.
I've given up just simply being,
nothing I say is true.

Why can't I make this addiction end, with it's constant hate and torture?
I finally thought I had a friend,
but I cannot say for sure.

It never listens, it never learns.
Maybe this is what it takes.
Perhaps thoughts speak louder than words,
if only it were true in this case.

The feeling of though hasn't helped me so far,
what will make it work now?
I want it to be a distant scar,
but, please tell me...how?