Living Hell

The constant pain of loss
Goes on the whole day through
I think about you always
No matter what I do
Where ever that I am
I find it hard to focus
On any task at hand
Foolishly I look for you
To put me in your way
Not caring about how bad I will feel
When you see me and turn away

The constant pain of loss goes on
The whole day through
I wake up in the middle of the night
And feel it more then too

I place myself with people But I'm careful not to stay too long
If I stay with them more
They will see my pain and move on
It is a secret I must cover and disguise
When it comes to being with people
These emotions they despise

I tell myself it just takes time
To ease the pain and sorrow
Today is just one day
And then one more tomorrow
Just another day
More time has come and gone
The pain should be less now
But it just goes on and on