SUDDENLY I HATE MYSELF..FOR FEELING EVERYTHING I FELT FOR YOU.
its like a video in my head that plays over & over again. i cant seem to get rid of the memories, i wish i could just throw you away, like you did to me. i just cant seem to let go && its honistly killing me. i would take days SPENT WITH YOU over days WITHOUT you ANYDAY. i just dont know how to let go, even though i ave a thousand reasons to. i just cant get you out of my head, i\'ve tried not thinking about you, i tried just going out and doing things, but at the end of the day, your STILL the last thing in my head. i hate seeing you in the halls because i honistly just want to cry, but i just turn my head && try not to cry. i know you found a new girl, && its okay you dont have to lie anymore. you never loved me, you never could try, its just the simple fact that you made me belive a LIE. i was so afraid to lose you, that i acctually did. yeah life HASNT been the same, but its been a while && you think i\'d be used to things by now, you think it would be easy to let go of someone who couldnt care about you. i wish i was something more, so that you would of had something to stay for, all the lost memories, all the lost promisses, some things arent ment to be broken, people ARENT SUPPOSED to let go, if they still want to try. your not supposed to hold on, if theirs nothing left, && i\'m not supposed to wish that you were still here. it shouldnt hurt this bad..&& now my colored world.... has slowly..turned to...grey...
SO ONCE AGAIN I FEEL MY HEART BRAKE, OVER SOMETHING THAT WAS ONLY IN MY HEAD, BUT DONT FORGET..I MENT EVERY WORD.. I SHOULD OF LEFT UNSAID.
