Grandpa we love you

There was man in our life,
We call him grandpa,
but there is no relation.
We were strangers to America,
Him, a stranger to our family
He taught us to read
To write and to speak
To learn and to cope.
He loved us so.

Car accident,
A young drunk vs. old sober
Who would win?

Hospital bed, grandpa laughing
our grandpa walking
our grandpa eating
Nothing is wrong

I'm out with my friends, eating and laughing
Our grandpa is fine, he will be out soon.

Conditions are good, so grandpa gets transferred,
Getting better, getting well, its ok, I'll visit later.
Weeks go by, still I don't visit, he'll be fine.

Hospital bed, grandpa cringing
Our grandpa sleeping
Our grandpa not eating
Something is wrong
I start to visit, he must get better

But better got worse and his kidneys gave in.
And all I can feel now is grandpa's pale cold skin.

Why didn't I visit, why didnt I care?
Now he is too far to touch, too distant to feel.
What is the point of my grieving now?

Who am I kidding?
Who can I blame?
He loved me so much.
No one to blame...
Which one is worse?
My lack of affection?
my lack of caring?
or my lack of concern?
It doesn't matter cause they all weigh the same...
Grandpa I'm sorry we weren't there for you,
but grandpa remember, we will always love you