Every once in a while when we're sitting in silence,
I'll just watch you doing whatever it is your doing.
i try to look at you as long as i can,
and I'm praying you don't look up and catch me.
when i look at you, my mind goes blank.
the only thing that goes through my head is the picture of your wonderful face.
sometimes when you're talking to me,
i don't hear what you're saying because i get lost in your eyes.
i have to force myself to pay attention.
it's hard, but i manage.
sometimes it makes me sad to watch you.
only because i know I'll never be able to have you,
hold you,
or take care of you.
not even for a little while.
but i try not to remind myself of that.
it only makes things worse.
but that's life,
you know how that goes.
so for now, I'm just going to keep on watching.
