FEELING THIS EVERYDAY

I'm stuck in this nightmare
the thoughts inside my head
images won't stop playing
of the night it all happened
darkness keeps clouding in
my heart keeps skipping beats
and tears are holding back
my smile is only fake
sadness hollows through my eyes
I wake up screaming
kicking at nothing
thrashing my arms
never ever lightly
you have ruined my life
you and I both know
that I said please donâ??t but you ddid??t care.
I must resist the urge though
as every thought reminds me of you
how do I get you out of my head?
these thoughts are never ending
words play over and over again
how do I stop the feeling?
I messed things up myself
going out with you is wuWithurt me the most
coming from voices inside my head telling me your back
When you got mad, I wanted to hide
with a knife by my side.
But every time I tried you found me every time.
I cocould?t move or even think
because I knew you would find me.
my head hurts, and I cant eat
my life is full of fear
what if he comes back and hurts me more.
I cant move, I cant even breathe
I wish he would just leave
I cant hide forever, but it hard not too
I just got to try to live each day as I have too.
when I heard him say (I see you)
and put a knife to my throat
I diddidt know what to do so I listened to him
then I got the chance to gulp..
I had to do only one thing and it would hurt him most
Kick him in the balls and run for help.
I coulcould do anything not even think
I wished this was only a dream
I got away and away I stayed
but I knew he had my keychkey chainll I remember the most is sitting in fear crying and knowing I was almost dieing.
He is a very upset man, and only at me
because I broke up with him .
This is where it starts,
When his face haunts your dreams,
and you blame it all on yourself till the very end��..