A lonely apology

I stand surrounded by thousands
Yet i am alone
People are brushing left and right
Yet i am alone
People are looking but not seeing
And i am alone
People walk blissfully unaware
And i am alone
In the cold hearted world
I am alone

Then there is a glimmer of hope
A beam of light through the dark
I am no longer alone
My hope comes to me as a person
I am no longer alone
The one in the crowd that cares
I am no longer alone
The one who looks and sees
I am no longer alone

But years of lonliness are acting
I am pushing her away
The fears and mistrust of life
I am pushing her away
I reach out to try and grab her
I am pushing her away

I am sorry
My hope and life are fleeting
I am sorry
The words never leave my mouth
I am sorry
As I reach, she slips through my fingers
I am sorry

I am sorry that i cannot express my feelings
I am sorry that i am unable to deal with them

I am pushing away my hope and life,
I try to hold on but my grip is failing

All there is left now is to carry on trying,
while there is hope, there is always something
Something to look forward to,
something to aim for
Something to cherish