Dear Mother

Sometimes I give into temptation and
For that you call me weak?
And when I hurt myself in frustration you
Just turn the other cheek

Is it because you just don't want to see
Your child in such pain?
Or maybe you're disgusted with
The fact that I remain

I know I disappoint you in
Every way a daughter can
I wish you could only see it's not
My fault this all began

I'm sorry that I cut myself
And drip blood on your clean floor
I'm sorry people ask questions when
My wrists are bruised and sore

I remember when I'd had enough
I was just minutes from my end
You walked into my room and you
Just walked right out again

But my sister sat and cried by me
She begged me please to stop
As she wrapped my wrists in toilet paper
I felt my heart descend and drop

My youngest sister intruded upon
A scene not to be seen by her young eye
She wept upon my shoulder saying,
"My sister please don't die."

You stood upon my threshold with
A shamed look upon your face
I threw my arms around you but
You resented my embrace

I know I tried to hug you when
I know that's not okay
But it's time you understand without
You're support I'll stay this way

If I had some place to run to where
I could get out of your sight
I'd pack my bags and leave and than
Maybe your lives would be alright

I know I am your problem child
And I know you hate me so
It's not a new development for
You hated me long ago

So as I lay my head on my pillow for
My final, lasting rest
I'll close my eyes and think of you
Because dear mother, you're the best