Mistakes

How do I not learn from mistakes
dying inside I smile though fake
I don't wanna fight, don't wanna love or live
b/c I gave you all I have to give
my soul, my heart, my everypart yours
though you're not gone it feels you're so far away
I'm terrible person b/c you wanted to stay
so as I lay dying inside
my parents rules I cannot abide
b/c I need you,i love you, but I can't let you stay
goodnight, goodbye, my love please stay away