Leaving...

Leaving

I see all of you walk out of my house,

Then I feel the tears come again.

I cry along with everyone else,

I cant seem to handle all of you leaving.

I dont know when you all are coming back,

All this makes me break down and crack.

You left with a sad goodbye,

Now my life became desert dry.

I cant keep these tears behind my eyes,

From all the times Ive tried.

I understand the meaning of goodbye now,

And wonder how?

This pain that lingers inside of me realizes something,

That it will stay within and never show itself.

When I was young I would never cry to this sort of thing,

But now I just want to sing.

I think about it day and night,

And now this is all just not right.

The tears are so strong,

And last so long.

Its hard to let go,

Hard to let this all show.

The tears have a long lasting effect on me,

That I just cant get over.

My heart falls to the deepest part of my body,

And it seems to just never get back up to the top.

My life seems as if it has gotten crushed millions of times,

But it seems some miracle happens and it comes back to life.

I miss all of you,

So badly it hurts.

The tears are cold and wet,

Long and painful,

So painful it burns holes through the rest of my life.

I write this because it relieves stress,

So much stress that it overcomes me.

And here I sit here thinking about when the next time I will be able to see all of you again,

I know it wont be for a long time,

So long of time,

I wont know how to cope.

I go to the bed you slept in and smell the freshness of all your hearts,

It takes me to a place Ive never been to before.

Somewhere where I feel Im near you all.

I hate to let you all go,

I hate to see you walk out that door and down the driveway,

I hate to see you drive off in that car that I might never see again,

I hate seeing all of you cry with the strong tears from deep inside,

I hate the feeling of emptiness inside because its so black and cold,

I hate to see all of you just leave our lives,

And cry the pain away.

This is so hard to deal with right now,

I just dont know how to say it.

I guess its just another goodbye,

Another goodbye that kills me so much more every time!