Why was i so dumb?

Why?

Why do i feel this way?

i always feel this way...but never quite this strong.

i am so scared and no one even knows.. I'm starting to

shake. I don't want to feel the cold blade against my skin.

Please stop me, someone, anyone, before it is to late. I just

want it all to go away all to stop. i don't want these dam cuts and scars all over my arms.

so why? why cant i stop? Its like I can't control my own body. i need HAVE to do this.

I'm shaking even worse now. The blood is running down my arm.

Why didn't anyone stop me?...Do they not care? i guess its too late now

I am gonna go downstairs now to see if you or anyone notices.

as usual no one does... the temporary high is gone now,
the one from the blade...
Oh fukc what did i do?
what have I done?
Please help me stop!
please don't scar!
if u don't i will never do it again...
i know i have said it every time but this time i mean it!
or do i?...