I hate myself.....

How I hate myself so much that I want to die....I never think of any one else but you...I\'ve known you since the day I met you....Every night and day,all I can think of is you and imagineing you every where I go....Sigh....I feel like I wanna kill myself and forget every thing that ever happened between us....But every time I want to forget that every thing that happened to us just keeps on coming back into my head over and over....I know you want me to forget and just be friends...But I can\'t....My head is all messed up....All i can say is I still want to be with you and start over again...