That boy i loved

That boy i loved
he made me feel whole
but now he is gone
and i have an empty soul
he acts like he doesn't even care
about the way i feel
the way he treats me it just isn't fair
he use to treat me with friendship
but know he acts like he doesn't give a shit
but deep down in my heart he still sits
but i need him to leave i need this love to quit
cause it is causing me so many tears
but not being near him is still one of my fears
i know i have to fight it
cause this love will never be real
but every time i think of him
my heart just starts to feel
a little more happy yet so much more sad
that we will never be close
and we will never be together
but i don't even know why i bother
even thinking about him
cause i know it will never be true
and i know what i have to do
i have to give up
i have to loose all hope
but i still don't know if i am ready to do that...