Hating myself

Everyday i have to face myself i hate it everyday that i always have to feel this way i cant explain it there is no meaning there is no explanation of what i have become i used to be quiet i used to be like a mouse now everything has turned so unexpectedly and horrible i hate what i have become i never thought i would turn out this way but you can have what ever is left of me i have been dying inside lately no where to go i have been going out of my mind Ive been running from myself i wanna get away from the nightmare inside my terrible self please give me something to understand