Fear

Inside and outside my secrets are kept
Through me memories are stirred
Beneath the fragments my fears are caught
Unforgettable tribulations haunt
And I laugh aloud not knowing what to do
Not owning my fears
I know I can change

Though I'm afraid I can be devil man
I hate being reliant
I'm scared of being left behind
Stuck in the room of countless doors
Trying to send out the signals
Finally owning my fears
Realizing I can change

Can you please reassure me
With a smile or touch
There is a way out
Past this point

The fears I swallow make me small
And the deeper I go the darker it gets
In my skin they crawl
Immune to the smell of cigarettes

I'm not there all the time
Who's that person inside my head?
He tells me not to walk the line
The corners of my mind read red

Alone in my desolate room
With no lights and no music
Only anger
I'm afraid of being too free
There's the gun or there's the door
The stage is set for you