I woke up screaming your name
On a cold and lonely night
Half expecting you to hold me and say
"Calm down, everythings alright"
As soon as the silence was around
I remembered where you were
The dream i had, that God awful night
Everything was such a blur
I wanted to reach for your hand
To pull me away from this lie
You are the key ingredient
To helping my heart survive
I might have understood it better
If you were still here
But in my mind you were there
But in reality, you disappeared
My heart wanted to mend itself
And try to let you go
But after so many years of this love
It's the only thing that i know
I know i should move on without you
And try to love again
But thats like holding a flame
Outside in the rain
The pain in which my heart knows
The lonliness i have met
The happiness i long to have again
So many years well spent
I want to hold out my hand
And have you pull me close
I want you to give butterfly kisses
On my face, eyes and nose
I want to feel those arms around me
That held me close to you
I want to feel the safety barriar
Full of solitude
I want to hold your head to my chest
And never let you escape
Of all the things i've thought before
You dying was a mistake
I always thought i was independent
And didn't need a man
I always thought i had two legs
On which i could always stand
But you were the in in independent
You helped me be who i am
You were the other leg to me
With one i can barely stand
I never realized how much i needed you
Til the day that my baby left
I never knew how much i loved you
Til i looked deep within myself
i never knew just how much
My heart would every break
Your the one thing i've done right
The one good choice i had to make
So Baby if you can here me
To you i send this cry
Without you my world is nothing
I want nothing more than to die
If you can see these tears that fall
Please come back to me
If you can see this heart breaking
Come back and mend it please
If you can see the pain i feel
Please come hold my hand
Give me back my other leg God
So i can finally stand
Baby if you can here me,
And you can hear my plea
Come back and be my saving grace
Take this life from me
Cause if i can't have you here on earth
I can't stand to be apart
Come back and release the break
That has been laid on this heart
Come back to me and set me free
For with you is where i belong
Come back and take me there
So i am never alone
Fly to me with heavenly wings
Take me beyond the sky
As of right now this world is temptation
Tempting me to die
I can't go on without you
And i wouldn't even try
So God please tell your angel
I'm about to die
On my bed i sat there
With a blade put to my throat
A painful way to die my friend
In my blood i'll soak
For my life was taken from me
When my baby died
Living this life wasnt' an option
Tonight i finally died
i need a better ending for this, i don't know if it's good or anything so if you would please tell me things to make it better it would be greatly appreciated. . .thanks
~*~Amber~*~
