I never want to sleep
Thoughts leave me then
My sadness returns at night
And I find it comforting
In these moments I discover part of myself
I get to be me
I can be silent
I can cry without explanations
I hate the daylight
I am only happy when it rains
I hate my life
Yet love the people in it
I love to possess things
I dislike my possessions
I think I am prettiest when sad
Plain in the light of day
Unattractive the rest of the time
I think I do not know how to love
I think I love too strongly
I think too much
I don't say enough
I think terrible things
And sometimes I like them
I think kind thoughts
And sometimes think they are false
I wear emotion openly to strangers
Hide them from family and friends
I want alot of things
I want for nothing
I wish I had more friends
I wish I were alone more
I am afraid to fail
I fear to try
I fear life...and death
I wish I spent more time with my family
And I resent that they need me to...
