Close My Eyes

If I close my eyes and close my heart
I'll be free of this feeling tearing me apart
If I close my eyes and turn away
No more awkward silences, no loss of things to say

A question hangs from the tip of my tongue
Are you happy now? If so, for how long?
Your eyes let on to feelings within
I feel it too, but it's a criminal sin

So I'll close my eyes and carry on
Maybe when I open them, this feeling will be gone
I'll just close my eyes; you're at the back of my mind
But it's a struggle to keep you there, to keep you inside

Your habits are changing; you've lost your smile
How long has it been? I know it's been a while
Reliving memories through stolen looks and unsaid words
Wish we could go back, but it would cause too much hurt

So I'll close my eyes and forget your face
Surrender to him; lose myself in his embrace
I'm almost there, but yet so far
So complicated; its best to stay as we are

He's not you, but I'll give him a chance
You told me he's amazing; forget this triangular dance
Stem the flow of tears that defeat me each night
Be rid of the fear that grips me when I turn out the light

So I'll close my eyes and try to pretend
You're nothing more than just a friend
I'll close my eyes to all I knew
But I'm still holding on, looking at you