Dear Life

Dear Life,
Im writing here today to tell you something bad
Its something that I need to do
Youll have to understand.

Dear Life,
It seems like yesterday that I was just a child
Playing tag and hide & seek
I always wore a smile.

Dear Life,
Those days have washed away
Becoming sadness and defeat
Today Im so unstable
I cant stand on my own two feet.

Dear Life,
All that I had is gone
Everythings been stripped away

Dear Life,
I feel that I cant last
Not even one more day.

Dear Life,
I know that youre confused on what Im telling you
But Im not just doing this for me
Im doing it for you too.

Dear Life,
Please do not lecture me, I know that this is right!
No more sorrow, no more pain
No more crying in the night!

Dear Life,
Please dont be frightened
I know that you are scared
But whats the point of living
When no one even cares?

Dear Life,
My gun is loaded now, its time for you to go
Its the world I blame,
Not you,
I hope youll always know.

Dear Life,
Its been 4 years now, though the bullet went through my head,
Im here today, alive but not well, I shouldve listened to what you said.

Dear Life,
I wish I would have known how my family would be
Every day, my mom comes in,
Her soul, it weeps for me.

Dear Life,
I try to grab her hand, and tell her its okay
But when I try to move my arm
It seems all it can do is stay.

Dear Life,
I wish theyd pull the plug
But my familys a mess
They feel that if I were to die
Itd add a lot more stress.

Dear Life,
Ive made things so much worse
I pray youre not upset
So now we lay in this hospital bed
Until the Reaper brings us death.