Save me from myself

Save me from myself, donâ??t let me break down and cry
Youâ??ve saved me from my worst times, times I wanted to die
You have helped me with my family, with Jarred and with stress
I envy you so very much sometimes I want to be you- that I must confess
Youâ??re my best friend; youâ??re the sister I have always wished for
Your strength and warmth, goes right to my bodies core
Things are really tough right now, and this you should know
Youâ??re always there for me, for this I love you so
If I am not around, when school starts again
It just means, I couldnâ??t cope with the pain
Iâ??m sorry for telling you, everything that was on my mind
For everything youâ??ve done, your truly one of a kind
April, you are my friend, you are my best mate
If Iâ??m not around, it just means Iâ??ve met my fate
Donâ??t cry, donâ??t weep, and donâ??t be angry and snappy
Be happy, because finally, I will be happy
Although you may not see it, quiet like I do
Suicide is part of me, and in my heart it is true
I love you April, and Iâ??m trying to be strong
But my family just tells me that I am all wrong
Iâ??m not pretty enough, or smart, Iâ??m just a mistake
They would be happy if I jumped in a lake
Donâ??t be sad April; youâ??re helping me through all this
Thanks for everything; if I were to die, youâ??re the one I would miss.