Everything That Reminds Me Of

They say I'm much too thin
She asks me if I'm bust Saturday
Nothing is planned
I say work has been hard and I need the money
I've learned how to lie and I can't understand why
Guess a heartbreak is hard to shake

Nothings forever but it's felt like that
And I can live like this
But I can't live with this

Spain in the summer
Nothing could be better
When it's all over I'll stay here another year
She said she might come overseas before school
I try not to keep my hopes to high
We're both the same much too shy

As I swim through my sounds
It wasn't her I was thinking of
Where is she now?
As the memories flood in

Now every word of every song I ever heard
Reminds me she's not here
Nothing can be worse
When you know she doesn't need you
I've not been sure of anything in my life
But I'm sure of this

There's a party on Friday
I need to forget everything even if it's for a little while
Now I'm living my life as a blur

I wake up in a white room
And the siren goes off
It was taking everything but memories of you
Finally when I found someone to fill this lonely sea
She won't leave my mind

She's the church geek from the surfer dream
She likes the beastie boys more than radio metal

Sometimes I laugh aloud thinking how ridiculous
To be caught in this prison
I show no anger to anyone because I'm the one
Who set the bars up

I have a date on Monday
I scurry out the door
Put my coat on so no one sees me
I never thought this is where I'd be
I just need a sip of freedom
I think of all the movies I've seen
Joking and try to find my scene through their meaning
But is it possible for the underdog to come out on top?

Stop to realize this isn't a game
She's just a person
And I have friends who help me pull through
She's just a girl
There's not much I can do

Though I can't lie no matter what they say
I'd rather have her in my life as a friend
Then as nothing at all