I Didn't Know Me

As I look at these poems
I've written to share with you
I realize that all along
I've been denying the truth

I used to say I wrote
Whatever came into my mind
But reading all my words
It's me I've come to find

I'm the girl who's sad
Disappointed and confused
I've felt the joy of friendship
And the burn of feeling used

I'm the one who's ignorant
Because I just couldn't see
That through all these poems
I've been sharing bits of me

I blocked out the reality
And nailed up these boards
I felt safer saying it was others
Lives whom I chose to record

But these poems are like the diary
The journal I never penned
It was better writing of the good
And the bad could die within

I'd love to say so long to pain
And it's company my tears
Forget away my problems
And dance away my fears

But subconsciously they stay
Well not so subconscious anymore
For here they are for everyone
To search out and explore

Please don't say you're sorry
That everything will be okay
I know now that it is
I've accepted that today

For when I realized my faults
And brought them to the light
I realize that now's my chance
To make everything go right