Continuation of FIRST LOVE (does it really die?)

***NOTE: This poem is divided into 2. Please read the first part before reading this. Thank you.

I do not know what to do or what to believe in,
I am very hurt, and I want to know what is within.
I have tried to forget about you, but my heart is still for you,
Hoping one day, when you are ready, your love for me will be true.

On our graduation, you gave me a dozen of red roses, my mind twirl,
It was in front of my dad, your family, our friends and even in front of your girl.
I never thought you would do such thing, so sweet and so nice,
I did not know how to react, I was so surprised!

With what you did, you made me feel that finally, you are ready,
That day, you came in our house so descent and met my family ,
But again, I was played by your stupid lies,
Once again, I was left all alone and all I did was cry.

You are still with your girl or maybe with another someone,
Now I think, you are not yet tired and is still having fun.
Are you really making a fool of me that is why you did it again?
Well, this time, I think this would really be the end.

Once again, my heart was shattered by the first person I loved,
Once again, pieces of a broken heart is what I have.
We never had a chance to talk about what happened, not even a call
I have a lot of questions to you but I found no answer at all.

I guess, we would not be seeing each other after this,
Then I will have time for myself and feel a bliss.
By then, I can totally forget about what we had and all about you,
By that time, who knows I might find someone new.

It took me years, without seeing you before I ease the pain.
I was no longer hurt but in my heart there was a stain.
Finally, I was able to mend my broken heart,
Then, I am sure I can finally have a new start.

Now I am with someone new, someone I truly adore,
He is someone with whom I offer my love for.
Suddenly, many nights in my dreams you came,
Then I ask, is this fate's new game?

From then on, my mind was bothered and I am going crazy,
Am I really in love with my man, or in my heart you still hold the key?
I hate it, but I have to ask, Is it true that "first love never dies?"
Or maybe this is just a trial for my man and I?

Back then, there were things left unclear and questions only you can answer,
Now, you are in my mind again, I do not know why and I just wonder
I am not sure If I still have feelings for you, I do not know,
But I am sure that years ago, I already have let you go.

I want to be faithful with my man, in my heart, soul and mind,
But I cannot do it if in my dreams, it is you I would find.
Why do you have to linger in my mind, now that things are okay?
For me to forget about you, what is the way?

I do not know if I still want to see you to know in my heart, what lies,
I do not know if I am scared to find out that first love never dies.
Or maybe, I have to, so we could talk about what was left unsaid,
So that I can prove to myself that my feelings for you is already dead.

With all of these, I do not know what will happen.
I just hope that (by you or my man) I would not get my heart broken.
We do not really know if first love really do not die,
But I know for sure that true love is what I have for my guy.

If first love really never dies, then do you still love me?
If it does not, I should have known it early.
I just hope to find the answer if it is true,
If it is or it is not, tell me what will I do?

***Thank you so much for reading. I would appreciate receiving comments from you.