Between Us

Last night you fitted so perfectly in my arms,
it was if nothing had changed between us.
Although, in that closesness was so much space...
A space that I doubt could ever be filled again, no matter how hard I tried.

We've both grown up; grown apart.
You now do your thing and I do mine.
And on the odd occasion we do our thing together.
But it isn't like the old days, the days we laugh about saying "friends forever", but I seriously thought that's the way it would be.

Who knew both our lives would take the turns they did?
Who knew that new people would be met, old friends would be reunited and that we would be pushed apart (although I do admit to not resisting) by a force more powerful than I can explain.

But seeing how you slept in my arms last night, and how perfectly you fitted with me,
It made sense to want what we had back in the good old days.
Both so very different people now, even if we both made the effort could it ever go back to the way it was?

Times, people, friends, enemies have changed... did we depend upon those things to build the friendship we had?

I keep questioning myself, and more so, questioning whether you are doing the exact same thing. I never know what's on your mind anymore, I've lost the ability to read you like a book. You were one of the most interesting books I ever read, each chapter was more exciting than the last.

And now the book is closed. Will I ever have the chance to read it again? The love I have for you will never fade. Our friendship may, but this will never...

I will always feel as though I never deserved you.