No one will understand... look at me. What do you see? do you see all of me? Do you know who I am , what I do? What I can do foryou? AmI worth the effort to anyone? I am so thick with scars that no one but few see. Conscious deliberate smiles fall on blind eyes and closed hearts. Again my efforts have gone unnoticed, and I\'m the crazy ones. I\'m blown apart and left alone to pick back up. the next one is never different, and it\'s the same everywhere. People are selfish and get angry when you give. All I want to do is give. No one wants what I have to offer. I\'m bursting with energy. I\'m bursting with passion and feeling. Is there anyone out there who notices? does anyone care to see past my exterior? Everyone bleeds. I don\'t get what I need. No one sees. I\'m so ready, and no one accepts. I want to love someone. I wanted someone.. I didn\'t need that, but I hunger for it. I am radiating with motivation to make this work. To make something. to create out of what I have. To create something greater than myself. To open up and turn myself inside out into 10,000 pieces of wonderful, mixed with something original and crazy. Someone wonderful, someone to stick to, to bleed from, to scream with all that is passion and wonderful feelings from inside, scraping to get out, to find this energy and consume it, spit it back out and make the space around me better. To love to love to love. To create, to learn to confide in. Finally yes, something free to take me to a higher existence, a place to celebrate freedom. To be real. To feel so deeply the whole earth shakes. To make someone smile. I want glassy eyes and challenge. Wonderful, messy, I can\'t live without you craziness. It\'s not about me. It\'s not about you, it\'s something greater.. it\'s someone beyond that. It\'s an art. My greatest pieces. our greatest creation. something to swim in, something to grab, squeeze and suck all the juice out until energy ceases and all is quiet and the stars fall in blankets silently over a smooth grassy hill, where all energy just slows, and wind tickles the grass, and I welcome eternal sleep with a light heart.
