It was there when I last felt oh so free,
that feeling when it was just you and me.
Coursing through my veins like glass,
us together was something meant to last.
Was it so impossible oh so against the stars,
it wasn't because whatever it was it was ours.
You say that it was not meant to be and just a mistake,
but even you in your denial knows that none if it was fake.
Waking up in the bright daylight to only see you,
always just to be with you always wanting nothing new.
Our old and boring habits were my goals,
unless there was something else to show we were connected by our souls.
Now knowing that you say you love another guy,
I don't eat..don't sleep..just scream up at the never ending sky.
Hating everything and everyone in this suffocating place,
Images haunt me everywhere I go..images of your beautiful face.
Going silent..not talking to anyone is all I can afford,
a constant reminder in my heart like a sword.
All this you've done to me and some of it to just to cause me harm,
I still just want to hold you in my arms.
Just want to have you back with all my might,
just wanting you to kiss me and tell me every thing's alright.
Reaching out as everything against us cuts my body like glass,
your image is going from me oh so fast.
I see it now..like a blinding light in a everlasting darkness,
shadows strangle me before reaching you and I feel so helpless.
Please save me from losing you..I will never be able to pay the cost,
everything is gone..everything seems lost.
Everyday like this gets harder and harder,
not so clear like glass-like water.
**I wrote this poem as I was fighting my feelings inside me to understand why I lost the most important person in my life when I tried nothing but to protect it. I hope that you can understand it and love it as much as I love it.**
