I Wasn't Expecting This

I never thought the day would come
When I would say goodbye
The day where tears was all Id see
And clouds would cover my sunny sky

Never once did I believe
That you would leave me here alone
I thought wed go together
And hand in hand fly home

But God had different plans
Ones no matter how hard I tried
I could never change
I couldnt change his mind

I loved you more than words could say
And you know that, Im sure
And I miss you day and night
But I cant see you anymore

Those times we snuck out
Just to say I love you
Are nothing more than memories
Something now, we can never do

And all those whispered words
Said gently in my ear
The ones Id always smile at
Are now too quiet to hear

Now everyday I miss you
And youre always on my mind
Like a dream I want to live in
Everyday and all the time

You were the one I loved
The one I couldn't live without
The one Id give my life to
You were all I was about

But as much as I do miss you
And as much as I want you here
I wouldnt change a thing
Or stop crying all these tears

Because I know it wouldnt be the same
And our love wouldnt be as true
But no matter what, remember
I will always love you

my girlfriend died, and yes, i am bisexual, and she did die from aids. but please, dont send me sympathy, cause i know it was for the best and even if i had the chance to have her alive again, i wouldnt take it, because in my heart, i believe this was meant to be, and having her back, as much as i miss her, wouldnt make our relationship as strong as it was.