My note

The voices told me to do it. they told me I'd be free. After that i just kept smoking more weed. It took the voices away a little bit, but they got worse. I have so many bad memories. I remember my parents couldn't come to my graduation but my brother did. Big Bro thank you for being there for me when me when mommy and daddy weren't. I'm sorry to all you were the last thing through my head. But I'm here for you and I'm not leaving i will be there for my family and friends in a second! Please don't cry I'm here in your heart forever. So many times i tried to forget about this but i couldn't, as I close my eyes I'll tell you the secret I held all my life, it's you that i live for and before you I'd die so i lay down now for my final goodbye. I'm so sorry I promise i will be OK, no one can hurt my anymore now. I will be looking down after you and make sure nothing bad happens. Please don't think that it's your fault it was just my choice to pick up that razor blade. I tried to put it down but i couldn't the sliver was so seductive.Mommy that's why all the razors in the house were always missing, and thats also why a always wore long sleeved sweaters all the time. I wish I could rewind time and rewrite every line so i could have prevented this but i can't and I'm sorry. Please don't shed a tear not even a drop I'm here and I'm not leaving, i just need to give up on something for a change and wipe that fake smile off my face. Now I'm going to take away the pain but don't worry you guys will be in my heart forever and forever shall I stay in yours