Trying to Forget

I lay here
On the bathroom floor
Tearing at these scars
That can reflect nothing of before

A tear stains my cheek
I\'ve tried so hard to forget
I thrash my nails in my flesh
As I shred my skin in all regret

If only I tore my heart
As hard as the physicality
Then maybe I could let go
Then maybe I\'d be free

These raised marks
Tell the horror of my stories
If only you knew
Me in all my \'glory\'

I must now stop
This childish tantrum
To go on pretending
And hope to find freedom