That girl

Why did he choose her?
Why not me?
Is she smarter?
or am I not pretty?

I try so hard
For just one glance
But then I see her
And I don't have a chance

The feelings inside
Are more than I can take
"why her?" I scream
"Can't you see she's fake!"

"just talk to me!"
my head screams
he's the only one I need
He's the one in all my dreams

I see my reflection
And wonder why I try
Then I see the blade
And begin to cry

Am I ugly?
Am I not worth it?
Why am I always
The one that wants to quit?

really bad but ya know it wouldn't hurt to hear some advice to make it better!