I'm sorry, so so so sorry. i'm sorry i have hurt you. lisa was pushing me away. u have only heard her side of the story, not mine. i know u grls hurt too. i was trying to find out y u hurt but none of u would tell me. i..........i............i........... dn't know what to say anymore. all my memories are filled with u grls aswell. i dnt want to loose them but lisa has made me feel like she doesn't want me in the group anymore. she made me feel like u and ashiehg hate me. i have become siucidal because of the argument with lisa. i sat down in the middle of the road on saturday at 7.30pm and cried. tami told me she was talking to u and lisa. and that she knew everything when it was none of her business. i was ruining amelia's party cause i was sitting on the road crying because i felt like i was loosing the people i would die for. i would still die for u. i'm as confused as u. i dn't know what to think anymore, or feel. my tablets aren't working so i ned to get stronger ones. i'm having thoughts of wat it would be like if i ovredosed. i'm falling back into the black hole and dragging u grls with me. i dn't want to though but it turned out that it would be like this. now in have no dea what i'm talking about. this poem has made me se things from ur point of view. i cried, i nearly threw all the glass stuff sitting around me and my heart tore even more. my heart tore for u. for the pain i have cause u again. i'm sorry but of course my words will never fix what i have done.
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