Hate Dealing With The Pain

It's building up inside of me,
It's testing my will tonight...
Sometimes the stress is so blinding,
It gets hard to even try and fight.

I know i made a promise and all,
I know i said I'd stop...
But it's hard when you take the fall,
After giving all that you've got.

Frantically searching hiding places,
Testing on your fingertips before you try...
The glass and thin skin embraces,
It takes away my pain and a cry...

Gliding across my skin,
My hands begin to shake...
Everything I'm holding within,
Is ready to burst and break!

All of this releasing pain,
Keeps going and going...
The glass begins to stain,
It starts to bleed without me knowing...

I drop the glass on the floor,
The mirror and me line up with each other...
It's what i use to see before...
One cut after another...

I thought i broke this addiction,
I guess i was wrong...
Because i made some friction,
When i gave up being strong...

It's so hard to be tough,
When you don't even know yourself...
What i give is never enough,
And I'm too stubborn to ever get help.

One day I'll do this again,
One day, I'll hit another vein...
One day, i might bring it to end,
Just because i hate dealing with the pain