Instead of looking up at you, I look away.
Cause I know I can never be the way,
The way you want me to be.
You'll never understand, you'll never let me free.
We argue, then it turns into a fight.
"Do it like this, why can't you do it right?"
Please know I can't fulfill your expectations.
Please note your disappointment feels like lacerations.
I walk away, feeling the burn of your stare in my back.
I only ask that you not to hurt me cause of what I lack.
I can't do what you want, but you apply more pressure.
If only once I can make you happy, that small moment I'll treasure.
All the mistakes, faults, regret, and whatever I did wrong...
All the disappointment, pressure, expectations...I wish were gone.
I try and try but its no surprise I again fail.
Your words rained on me feel like a never ending stone hail.
I don't know where to go or what to do, you make me feel stranded.
I give up, I'm fed up, I can't stand it.
I know I can't, but you force me to believe I can.
Let time wash me away and bury me in deep waves of sand.
