This is my last goodbye.

We just got done hanging out,
and we barely talked.
The atmosphere was so thick.
I couldn't hear the dogs barks.

I was completely focused on you the entire time.
Even though I mostly looked away.
You were the only thing on my mind.
I couldn't even see the suns rays.

This is so messed up.
I can't even eat.
You make me so upset,
yet I love thee.

I really wish I could go away,
never to return or see you again.
I know that must sound kinda bad,
and I really don't mean to offend.

I can't believe I let myself do this..
I know I will get hurt every time.
It never fails to happen.
Its like a never ending fine.

It's time for me to go.
This is my last goodbye.
Please may I just request
that you all don't ask why.

Don't ask why I took this way out,
or why I did the things I did.
Don't ask why I shouted,
or said the things I shouldn't have said.

I'm just letting out my feelings,
in what I think is the best way.
If you have a problem with them,
then why don't you just tell me another day.

I don't feel like talking to you right now.
It just hurts so much to even look you in the eyes.
How am I ever supposed to let you know how I feel.
I'm just going to let out my cries.

I know if I talk to you,
about the things needed to be said.
Then I know I'll cry,
then I'll need to go to bed.

I don't want you to see me like that.
It just makes me feel really weak.
I've learned how to block out my feelings,
but for once, help is what I seek.

I don't need my help from you,
or from any of my "friends."
I can do this on my own..
Until the very end.

If you don't think I can,
then screw you too.
I'm stronger than you think.
I'm not a fool.

I was only a fool for you,
and I've learned my lesson.
If you think this is true,
then your not mistaken.

I fell for you;
knowing I would get hurt.
Well screw this,
my ideas never work.

All I ever wanted was to be a part of your heart.
Was that really that big of a request?
You've been the center of my life,
ever since we met.

This is getting long..
So I'm gonna say my last goodbyes.
Peace out y'all,
and have a goodnight.