Losing Control

I don't know what's happening,
I'm losing control,
Everything I do is just wasted energy

I can't do anything right,
I can't control anything,
So I'm taking control,
Over the thing I can

Eating is an option,
Not something you have to do,
So I control,
What I can and cannot do

I refuse to eat,
The smell gets me to puke,
I refuse to give in,
And gain weight as I stuff my face

I chose to stop,
I chose to starve,
I don't care what happens,
Even if I die

I don't want to eat,
I don't want to lose,
Control over something
I have a hold on

I don't want to lose,
I don't want to die,
But losing control,
Is something inside,
That hurts me deeply,
Leaving scars behind..