I'm lost

I sit alone looking at the clear blue sky
wondering do i really need this and why
why must i wonder holding this incurring pain
close to my heart blood trips like the rain

I want to love you like the moon meets the sun
but yet i hate you because I'm clearly not as fun
I look at life with anger and burning hate
knowing that someday I will run out of fate

anticipating for what will happened tomorrow and today
knowing that the skies are not always going to be gray
that me life may soon turn around with joy and laughter
That my heart can stop in peace and relax to this day and after

behind these clear hazel eyes tears slowly drip down
with Passion behind her luxurious lips they turn to a frown
with crystal ears so open hearing ever tear drop
with the faiths of her hands makes them stop

curling up and shivers on her lonely bed
she thinks what she has left and cries instead
crying for herself and thinking for her friend
I'm going to leave sorry this is where i end