Wanting to Hate You

Break my heart in two
break my heart in shattered pieces
hatred consumes your mind
knowing you've moved on
has killed me inside
my heart bleeds
my eyes tear
my hands shake
i was all yours, dear.

i gave you everything
i gave you more than you needed
you held my heart in your hand
now i am defeated
you've broken my life
you've emptied my soul
I'll never be whole
again

you said you loved me
you said forever
you said I'll marry you
you said i was your everything
you said alot of shit that wasn't true
you made me believe so much
now i feel so out of touch

I'm broken inside
the blood on my fingertips
reminds me this is real
no one can wake me up from this nightmare
even the thought of you with someone else kills me
telling someone else that you love them
feeding them the same BS you fed me

i want to hate you
but i guess i can't
because I'm so deeply in love with you