My life's so fake its almost make believe
its full of illusions and stubborn reminiscences that just don't leave
attach to that ever particular hallucination
that wont come true it almost makes me shriek
individuals state that they know what makes me tick or shed tears
if they only knew that what they know is just a falsehood
I don't show my feelings dreadfully effortlessly
that's why as much as they say they do, they don't know me
because every time I plunge
I hide that fact behind a barrier
and every time I jaunt
I put it on as if all I did was skip
Every time my heart is broken
I pretend all is tolerable although I'm choking
with the pond of tears I cry once I'm alone
I act as if not to care even though it hurts me right down to the bone
when I fall in love with a guy, damn
I vigorously keep it from him until I no longer can
as a result of the time I tell him, he is already paired
with a girl who "loves" him so it seems he in no way cared about me
My family doesn't really doesn't who I am
I could care about something and the next instant I wont give a damn
every now and then I feel like I am what the world knows least about
it sounds as if like I'm just so freaking hard to figure out
cause every time I collapse
I hide the fact behind a barrier
every time I stumble
I act as if all I did was skip
every time people ask if I'm down in the dumps
I enlighten them "hell no I'm just a little edgy"
every time I'm furious
I always blame it on my skepticism
every time Im wounded or in agony no one really sees it or cares, its just insane
every time that I'm mood is like shit
no one tries to gaiety me up one bit
cause every time I collapse
I hide the fact behind a barrier
every time I falter
I act as if all I did was skip
every time people ask if I'm gloomy
I advise them "hell no I'm just frazzled"
every time I'm annoyed
I always blame it on my cynicism
every day I donâ??t have excitement
its like a day devoid of the sun
every day that passes via
I crisscross my spirit and anticipation to breathe your last breath
