Chapter 10 - Hate So Much

I hate so much what I've become,
I hate so much the life I run,
But I had to leave the life before,
I don't know which life hurt more.
The pain I feel now is so real,
At least before there was a seal,
I could hide those feelings away,
But now they're out, and I must pay.
Feeling as I do about this guy,
It [f]ucks me up, it kills my world,
But I can't just turn off my heart,
he's my everything, we can't depart.
I need to know he's by my side,
Without him from the world I hide,
he is everything to me,
Stay with me, please hear my plea.
Is there point, or am I crazy?
Why are all my thoughts so hazy?
I need you more than you can know,
Leave my heart so I can grow.