I freak out
I dont know whats going on
I get cold
Tears fall from my sad eyes
I get numb
I wonder if you are like the others
I feel hurt
I fall apart
Inside I die
Whats going on?
Am I going to be alone again?
I dont like this
I want to be able to trust you
I believe you
Until it happens
Then I want to crumble to pieces
And break apart from this nightmare
I know how you feel though
But when it happens
I want to cry
And even die
Why do I have to feel like this?
The rude monster comes to me
Every time
And I hate it
I hate feeling this way
Why cant those feelings just end?
I trust you
I really do
But cant because of the past
I want to trust you
Its my goal
I hate this
I dont like it one bit
I dont want to lose you
My dear friend,
Because of me
So I am sorry
For the pain Ive caused you
Because of this hell I have in me
