Emotion less

So well go to ur room
shutting emotions all out
the air smells strong
of smoke and sex
the night grows long
and so we move quick
hes a sleep
and i sneak out
he wont care
or notice im not there
his morning hang over
hes bold in my mind
i hate myself
i cant go home
i put on a smile
holding my head up strong
i wake back in
and take my shirt off
as i lay in his arms
his eyes in my head
i wonder why i feel so dead
emotions all lost
my veins run dry
and i wonder what it would be like just die
my heart just bleeds
and he just dreams
night comes crashing down
he leaves without a goodbye
i stand in the door
broken and stunned
and i think to my self what have i done