A Life That's Too Far Lost

Blade in my hand
ready to go
searching for answers
wanting to know.

If I left forever
where there's no coming back
would you notice me then?
or not take effect?

I guess it doesn't matter
what decision that I make
to you I'm just a nerd
who's life is just a fake.

I wanted to be with you
I wanted you to see
that beauty's just an image
like a ripple on the sea.

I once found out that:
"Pain is just an illusion"
well my illusion has taken over
now it's just a matter of seconds...

*As the blade falls to the ground
she watches oh so helplessly as
her life flashes before her eyes
the illusion is gone...but so is she*